Dear Layla,

it has been three weeks and one day since you have passed away. My emotions have been everywhere, I feel like I am living a lie, I can only pretend to try to cover up the pain that I am going through but it is not working.  I have been praying a lot late, I would always pray for you before I had you, it would be everyday I would do that, but once you were here with us I stopped. I am so sorry that I stopped praying when you born. There is a gospel song that says, “prayer changes thing”, I need to trust and believe in that. I also trying to get your Daddy to pray with me as well. I am sorry my sweet Layla if my thoughts are so scattered today, but that’s how I am feeling. One thing that I know is good and true is that I love you so much. I remember you would say I love you and I would say I love you more.

Love you always and Forever

Mama