Category: Missing You

Dear Layla,

I miss you so much. This life is so difficult without you, I am just so lost, I don’t know what to do without you and I cannot see myself becoming happy again. Sorry for all the sadness baby. I miss your playful spirit and wonderful imagination. We would we be playing and running around and you would scream, “it’s a snake, or its an alligator, or its a puppy. You were so silly but I love that most about you. I miss hearing your voice as well. I know you really enjoyed playing dress-up, so I have your favorite skirt from the daycare with me, you would wear it nearly everyday, I am just so grateful they gave it to us. My sweet Layla, your life has impacted so many people, you were/are loved by so many, you are truly missed by everyone who has met you. I wish you had more time with all of us, but that is not how life work. If God needs you, God will send for you and HE has and now you are in the Kingdom of Heaven with your crazy beautiful self. I will continue to pray until we meet again, I love you, I miss you and I am always thinking about  you.

Love Always and Forever,

Mama

Dear Layla,

I still do not understand why you passed away. It makes me so sad knowing that you are so far away from me and I cannot get you back. Life is so confusing and frustrating without you here. My sweet Layla, you were truly and honestly the only thing that was right in this world, in our lives. So when I think about your passing, I am angry, sadden and confused. You are/were perfect, only if we would have caught the Leukemia sooner, maybe you would have still been here with us, why didn’t we know the signs? Layla I don’t know why it was you, I wish God would of took me instead. I pray for understanding but it still has not been revealed to me, and it probably never will but I will keep asking. I am so sorry Layla that we cannot laugh, play, read together or do any of the things we used to do together but one day I will be with you and your baby brother. Words cannot describe how much I miss you, but you are always in my thoughts, I wish I could have in my dreams but I haven’t dreamt about you in a few weeks, but you are always on my mind.

Love Always and Forever,

Mama

 

 

 

Dear  Layla,

where have you gone? I miss you so much, it is so hard living in this world without you, you were my world. I am still asking God, “why did He take you away”? I have so many memories of us playing and laughing, me saying in a sing-song voice, “Layla, where are you” and you would always be there, but now you are no longer here. You not being here my sweet Layla hurts so much. We are trying to be strong, but it is hard. This family has gone through so much, I don’t know how much more we can take at this point. You will always be with me forever in my heart, mind, and deep down in my soul. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!! This is a cruel world that we live in and I just can’t until we are together again. I wish I coul of had one more hug and one more kiss from you.

Love Always and Forever,

Mama

Dear Layla,

yesterday we went through your clothes,  that was a very emotional thing for your Dada and I to do. Do not worry we have a good use for your clothes, we will be sending some to your cousins, a family friend and goodwill, so that makes me happy that your clothes will be used again. I believe that a little girl could never have too much clothes and that you did not, so of the stuff you hadn’t even wore yet, but that was okay because I knew eventually you would have worn those items. You Dada and I kept some of   your clothes as well like your dedication dress, your baby bear suit and a few other things, and your gray  bunny jacket. It sucks that your most special belongs that we value are now in boxes, you things should be out for you to play with and enjoy.  You really loved that bear suit, I am sorry you cannot wear it again, but I will cherish the memories of you jumping on the bed in it and your running back and forth  in it. My Sweet Layla you are loved and missed so much and I cannot wait to see you again in Heaven.

Love Always and Forever,

Mama

Dear Layla,

it has been nearly one month since you have passed away, but that time does not mean much to your Daddy and I because it feels like your passing only happened yesterday.  You have been on my mind, in my thoughts and in my prayers ever since you have passed away, but it’s not like you weren’t always on my mind anyway. Even when you were here with me on Earth, I always wondered, “oohhh would Layla like this or I wonder if Layla would want this”. Your Father and I wanted the best for you and did what we could for you. I was thinking about the upcoming Holidays and I am saddened that you didn’t get to celebrate more, I know you would have loved Halloween and spending Christmas with your Grandma and Grandpa. Every night before I go to bed, I make sure I tell You and your baby Brother Jackson, “Goodnight and I love you”, I hope you hear that in Heaven my sweet Layla. I miss you like crazy and I love you so much, remember you will always be my baby.

Love Always and Forever

Mama

Dear Layla,

these are not my words, but they touched my heart in such a sweet way. I hope that you like them too my sweet Layla.

I know you had big plans for me that won’t ever come true; But God’s plans are Greater and His plans always come throught. i know you loved me then, as much as you do know, but please don’t cry for me because I get to sleep in Heaven’s Nursery now. You see, this place is the perfectnplace, for people just like me I’ve made all sorts of new-found friends and I got to meet some  that already once knew. Each day we laugh and play while we wait on you. Stay close to God while you live  and when it’s your time to go, I’ll be there att he gate waiting to hold you close to me just like God will also do.

I am always thinking of you, missing you, and praying for understanding. I will see you one day and that brings me comfort.

Love always and forever,

Mama

Dear Layla,

it has been three weeks and one day since you have passed away. My emotions have been everywhere, I feel like I am living a lie, I can only pretend to try to cover up the pain that I am going through but it is not working.  I have been praying a lot late, I would always pray for you before I had you, it would be everyday I would do that, but once you were here with us I stopped. I am so sorry that I stopped praying when you born. There is a gospel song that says, “prayer changes thing”, I need to trust and believe in that. I also trying to get your Daddy to pray with me as well. I am sorry my sweet Layla if my thoughts are so scattered today, but that’s how I am feeling. One thing that I know is good and true is that I love you so much. I remember you would say I love you and I would say I love you more.

Love you always and Forever

Mama